Without My Father

 

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

 

Who is this stranger that speaks to me?

He’s but another face in the crowd

A scar to me on humanity

It’s been years void of your love and affection

Lucid dreams of my father

What is he like? What did he do?

But violence consumed you

Liquid spirits consumed your thoughts

Influenced by powered demons up your nose

I speak to you today

A better man

A righteous man

Hunted by the ghost of the past

Hardened by the absence of your fatherly strength

You disappeared from our life

From me

From us

Was it tough times?

Young making difficult decisions

Your thoughts unclear

You attacked us

You hurt me

For years I cried for my fathers love

For years I ached for your acceptance

For years a young child needed the answers to a million questions

Over time my demons have passed

I have learned

I have matured

I have loved

I have forgiven

All without my father