Without My Father

10 Nov


By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.


Who is this stranger that speaks to me?

He’s but another face in the crowd

A scar to me on humanity

It’s been years void of your love and affection

Lucid dreams of my father

What is he like? What did he do?

But violence consumed you

Liquid spirits consumed your thoughts

Influenced by powered demons up your nose

I speak to you today

A better man

A righteous man

Hunted by the ghost of the past

Hardened by the absence of your fatherly strength

You disappeared from our life

From me

From us

Was it tough times?

Young making difficult decisions

Your thoughts unclear

You attacked us

You hurt me

For years I cried for my fathers love

For years I ached for your acceptance

For years a young child needed the answers to a million questions

Over time my demons have passed

I have learned

I have matured

I have loved

I have forgiven

All without my father



1 Comment

Posted by on November 10, 2008 in Emotional Writing, Poems of Expression


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One response to “Without My Father

  1. Nortoria

    November 11, 2008 at 11:48 pm

    I can somewhat feel you on that, even though my father was around during my youth in a sense he wasn’t. Now days he is still not in that same sense because he consumes so much alcohol that its he does. He is a different person when possessed by those liquid demons, a person I don’t know, and a person I choose not to associate with. As a sober man, he is a great person with a good heart. But with that demon in him I would rather not be around him so he is absent in a sense.


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